There it is! This is the reason! It all makes sense now!
Let me start from the beginning...........
About four years when I started college, I couldn't help realize that I handled stress a lot differently than everyone else. Not to mention, I didn't communicate with people the same way as everyone else and I wasn't exactly on the best sleep schedule. Most people blame it on the huge transition between college and high school and the overall shock of being four hours away from home... I am indeed most people.
Moving on, I get by each day, usually making enemies with my insatiably bad attitude. Surprise, I know. However, I don't care to fix it nor even acknowledge that I have a problem. I go through each day in a full blow panic because I don't have control and if anyone takes away that control it's a down-hill spiral to impending doom/destruction/the pits of the Earth.
Finally I have pissed off anyone and everyone around me because I'm right. I know I'm right because no one else can be right, therefore I am right. This is by far the dumbest thing on the face of the planet. I have finally realized it and lo and behold I'm getting better. I went to counseling and talked to a psychiatrist about what was going on. We both concluded this was something bigger than "not enough exercise, doesn't sleep enough" diagnosis.
Here's a pretty good definition of what's going on:
"Generalized anxiety disorder is characterized by persistent, excessive, and unrealistic worry about everyday things.
People with the disorder, which is also referred to as GAD, experience exaggerated worry and tension, often expecting the worst, even when there is no apparent reason for concern. They anticipate disaster and are overly concerned about money, health, family, work, or other issues. GAD is diagnosed when a person worries excessively about a variety of everyday problems for at least 6 months. Learn more symptoms.
Sometimes just the thought of getting through the day produces anxiety. They don’t know how to stop the worry cycle and feel it is beyond their control, even though they usually realize that their anxiety is more intense than the situation warrants.
GAD affects 6.8 million adults, or 3.1% of the U.S. population, in any given year. Women are twice as likely to be affected.
The disorder comes on gradually and can begin across the life cycle, though the risk is highest between childhood and middle age. Although the exact cause of GAD is unknown, there is evidence that biological factors, family background, and life experiences, particularly stressful ones, play a role.
When their anxiety level is mild, people with GAD can function socially and be gainfully employed. Although they may avoid some situations because they have the disorder, some people can have difficulty carrying out the simplest daily activities when their anxiety is severe."
So it's not that I've lost my mind or just plain psycho... Nor is it that I just hate everyone accept myself!
I seriously suggest anyone and everyone to take some time to evaluate their mental health. Words cannot express how much better I feel and how much more productive I am. Praises!