Rain, rain go away. That's what all my haters say.

I have finally had enough experiences to do me for a while. I finally got my first speeding ticket and wanted to fall over and die. I literally cried for three solid days. It was more shameful than anything. Not only that, but I was put in a situation where I couldn't talk myself out of trouble. The blatant and honest truth was that I did something wrong. That didn't settle well with me. I'm a very manipulative person. I have to have most things my way or they're never good enough. I know, it's a sad life I lead.

Anyways....
I have become obsessed with 16 and Pregnant. What a sad addiction to have, I suppose. Something about watching the story of a helpless child forced to grow up in order to care of their own child. These shows simply remind me of what excellent role models my parents are. Something of that nature would have never been an option. EVER. My parents are very conservative, but it's times like these that I am thankful for them.

Something else I've also noticed is my lack of contact with religion. I can't believe that I have let myself get this so far distracted from what I believe. In high school, I was in church every Wednesday, Sunday morning and Sunday night. I was also an advocate for studying the Bible and things like that. Not saying that it's wrong to not do these things 24/7, but I completely lost focus. I don't even think about my religious preferences anymore. Perhaps that's why I have been so stressed. Rather than handing my problems off to God like I used to, I try to keep them all in and solve them myself. I'm sure this all sounds real "cray-cray", but we all know Jordan isn't a Bible thumping, Amazing grace singing, evangelical... It was just the next thing that I thought to write about.

Well, in other news, I'm in love with JT more than ever and that seems to multiply each day.
I'm suppose to be moving out of the dorms in two weeks. EXCITEDDD.
Christmas is just around the corner, I can't wait.
I would probably kill someone for a cherry coke right now... uugghhh. :/